The daily walk

[Verse]
In ten minutes I'll have to take my daily walk
Still under the sheets, it's still freezing cold
And I reluctantly take a shower my head hung low
Because under the water I feel at home
The water's covering my body with little tears
From the head to the penis, I feel like a locked up pig
A brief look at the mirror makes me sad
I used to be so content with what I had
I know I shouldn't look at my phone
Especially when I'm alone
The pictures of your face are still here
In my head, my heart and in the street
Walking in the snow while half asleep
Every step I take is another one I miss
I can't even look at the homeless
I'm trapped in a nightmare where love is emptiness
I take a lukewarm coffee in the cheapest place
In all the people around me I see your face
The politics around us may prepare the next world war
Even with a gun in my hand I'll still look at the stars
I know this is a bit unhealthy
But I can't take you ignoring me
If only I could rewind the time
There's a million things I'd do differently
I may be feeling no pain
But there's fake blood in my veins
I saw myself kissing you in a field
On the first of july of 2018
It may be irrational but it kept me sane
You don't know how hard your heart is to obtain
You know for you I'd change
I'd change, yes, yes
I'd change