The Cold War

You say it all with an ease
Like you don't think it means nothing to me
Like I'm not a creature
Who dwells on the cuts
Who pulls them back open
Just to fill them all up

With concrete
Sink in slow
I'm drunk in Siena
Not that you'd ever know
The Cold War was just me
And the harsh light of day
Feels like its coming to take me again

All your words were too sweet
So the chess pieces fell at your feet
And I scraped all my skin on the rough bricks at home
To hide all the evidence, so they'd never know

What I was
What I knew
You were down in the dumps
Clutchin' footholds and lumps
The Cold War, sways in time
She builds and she falls, on the slate tiled halls again

I am filled with regret
Decisions I made that I didn't even get
And you told me you loved me
We rehearsed all the way
Said I had two choices
You can kill me or stay

So I caved
Saved the day
Manipulated into someone
That I hate today
The Cold War
Was just me
Deployed until now that I've come to claim me again

Push up on me
Make me guilty
Make me feel like I pushed the knife
Thought I buried
Thought I covered
Now you're on me like a bug on a light
Push up on me
Make me guilty
Make me feel like I pushed the knife
Thought I buried
Thought I covered
Now you're on me like a bug on a light

And I'm watching from my satellites
And I can see you changing and you're alright
You're alright

Push up on me
Make me guilty
Make me feel like I pushed the knife
Thought I buried
Thought I covered
Now you're on me like a bug on a light

And I'm watching from my satellites
And I can see you changing and you're alright