The Calling

What if I don't really have a purpose?
Could every word I ever write be worthless?
I might as well remain wordless.
God can't use me because I have too many flaws,
What if I don't a calling?
I just want to be a part of God's vision,
But my comfort zone is a prison,
And my anxiety is isolating me from society,
What if God has no use for me?
Now honestly that is a bitter pill,
But God says "You don't understand it now but one day you will."
I am a flawed individual battling my own goliaths,
But God uses the broken.
No matter where you stand right now,
God can use you.
Because God's plans can be obscured by the problems of the day,
Feeling like your family can't survive from payday to payday,
Maybe it is that mountain of bills that you know you can't pay,
It seems to be getting harder and harder to even pray,
Then a loved one unexpectedly passes away.
Someone who will never say 'I Love You' again,
This is not the end, my friend.
God can still use you,
No matter how the world has beaten and bruised you.
Whoever told you that life with Christ would be easy was lying to,
Living for God just means you’ll have a little help passing through.
Just look at me,
I am not quite the best anything,
And I tend to hide my emotions like a machine,
But hand me a pen and I will paint my heart upon my sleeve.
I never grew up in church and I am built of sin,
Yet here I am able to serve Him.
A year can change a person,
Let's call 8th grade David the beta version.
David, quit stressin’,
Just look at your blessings,
And faith doesn’t mean that you can’t have questions.
Bullies forcing me to a life of hate,
Yet now I live my life based upon the love of my Savior?
I can’t believe that.
God has a calling for you if you will open your eyes.
You want to teach? Teach.
You want to preach? Preach.
Sing for him and dance for him,
But no matter what,
Don't be defined by your sin.
I resided in the past for far too long,
And now I have done some growing up.
I mean, a year ago I wouldn't be able to stand up here,
Letting people see the real me is my biggest fear.
And I never expected to bring "What Is Beauty?" to the talent show,
But when I followed God's calling I had no idea where it would go.
Yet I'm still far from who I want to become,
But I know not to live based on my sorrow,
Because the pain of today can't compare to the joy that’s coming tomorrow.