The Bed

Heaven is the bed I make and Hell is where I've slept
And I know there are parts of me who not know where I've been
Can somebody please tell me why I worry like I do?
This pain I feel don't feel like mine
I don't know what to do with it
Here, I'll play dead, in the pool I float like I won't sink
Instead of trying to swim to shore, I call for help again
And glory to the clarity that comes in subtle waves
With my back against the wall, and nothing to believe in
And I'm now not afraid to work
Sometimes I don't know what to do
So many options, hard to taste, but I'm so hungry
I can't move
And when I finally gained, that confidence to lift that spoon
Up to my face I know I'll keep eating even though I'm full
Now, drill holes in my feet
Pull me out and watch me drown
Set me on top of this water, let me stand on solid ground
I'll play dead in a pool I float like I won't sink
Instead of taking your advice, I'll float on top the waves
Now, you tell me I'm crooked
You tell me I'll adapt
You give me an answer to a question never asked
I need you to listen
But you needed to talk
And now we walk together
We got nothing done
Now, look at me all civilized
Like I need this to live
Addicted to the routine life that I've had since a kid
City lights, conservatives, and television sets
And frequencies that I can't see but keep me in their grip
In between the mountains, something calls for me
It tells me that it's time for change
It tells me I should leave
And I know that I should, but I have nothing to pack
And I'm scared that once I turn my back that I'd never come back
I'm tired of the same old same, no pain, no gain, someway, somehow
I lied when I claimed that I'd know how to make it settle down
I'm blind like you are me
And we are naked, not alone
We're born to raise awareness, just to train in how to smile
For every little speck of paint
Thats ever been painted on this wall
I'd sacrifice my ego just so we could watch it fall
Cause Heaven is inside of us, and there is no where else
Together we can finally feel as empty as a home
And in that home there lives a voice that I call the unknown
It pulls me and it pushes you to where we need to go
Sometimes I do not listen, only when I doubt myself
And when I'm sensitive to my intuition I sense that everything has evolved
So what is it that governs these decisions we must make
Between the right and wrong, and how we label some mistakes
Cause lately I've been thinking about how it comes in waves
And how every single choice I make will impact everything
So how much do I make and how much is outside of me?
And what can I do to prevent myself from feeling future pain?
Cause even when the sun fills up the sky inside of me
A part of me becomes preoccupied about when it will rain

Now, Heaven is the bed I make and Hell is where I've slept
And I know there are parts of me who no not where I've been
Could somebody please tell me why I worry like I do
And remind me to enjoy the moment while it lasts with you

Could somebody please tell me why I worry like I do
Could somebody please tell me why I worry like I do
Could somebody please tell me why I worry like I do
This pain I feel don't feel like mine
I don't know what to do without it