The Balance

As I watch the clock
My whole heart starts to drop
Times ticking away
It doesn't stop
It never stops

On that mission again
Leaving behind what matters the most
The tears cloud my vision
I pretend to be fine but that's a joke

Inside I'm torn to shreds
Before I fly high I numb the head
It's part nerves part excitement part dread
Wish I could tell you something different instead

It's bittersweet, I'm off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge

It's bittersweet, I'm off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge
But I love them more

Time to punch the clock
The cycle never stops
I'm feeling pressure to please
To appease all sides and me
Don't get me wrong
Don't misunderstand
I love my work
It's my passion
I take nothing for granted
Not a thing
Nothing

It's bittersweet, I'm off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge
But I love them more

As the long hand marks the minutes on the clock
That goes tic then tock
My soul is aching
My heart is breaking

It's bittersweet, I'm off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge
But I love them more

It's bittersweet, I'm off balance
My choice hangs in the balance
I love the feeling, the challenge
But I need them more
I need it all
To fulfil the call
I need balance
Balance