THAT’S ALL I GOT

[Intro]
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[Verse]
Your friends ain't your friends unless they get something out of you
Your parents ain't supportive if they keep fuckin' doubtin' you
Your depression ain't disappear if your thoughts keep crowdin' you
Your tears don't mean shit if you're a man, just keep 'em down in you
I know you sad as fuck and you just keep it deep down in you
I do the same shit, as a man, that's all I'm allowed to do
It's hard to be happy when all the sad shit is cloudin' you
Sometimes it would be nice to fuckin' hear a "I'm proud of you"
You can't stomach this shit? Don't listen, maybe it's too loud for you
Life hasn't been stress-free since the days of my proudful youth
I know my mama try her best to keep me from feelin' down
But I haven't been fuckin' happy since the day I came out of you
I don't eat anymore, my self esteem is too low
My ego's in the floor
My confidence packed its bag and left the key at the door
Changed its lock on the pad, lately, I just been mad
I'm fuckin' mad at myself
I let myself go and now I'm fuckin' mad at my health
Relationship anxiety, I fuckin' damage myself
How can I manage love when I can't even manage myself?
My woman's Heaven sent and I was branded in Hell
I hope nobody out there ever fucking feels what I felt
Those days when shit get real and you can't fuckin' handle yourself
Haven't showered for days, and you can't fuckin' handle your smell
Haven't spoken for weeks, and you can't fuckin' handle your yell
No one come to my crib, I can't fuckin' handle my bell
My phone is on DND, I'd rather just hang with myself
Do anything in my will to stop me from hangin' myself
Nothing about this isn't normal, I'm just a man in his shell
And when the dark is creeping still
And life really start to hit, when shit start to get real
It really makes me wish that I popped those fuckin' pills
It makes me wish I jumped when I wanted to feel the thrill
I hope I say some stupid shit one day to get my ass killed
I hope my girl don't ever leave me, that's gon' be my last for real
I've had friends who brought me up and left me in the past still
Neglecting my own health not knowing I was that ill

[Outro]
Neglecting my own health not knowing I was that ill
Whatever, whatever
Mm, mm
Shit
That's about it