Test of Faith

[Skirmish]
I felt like a worthless child that needs to gain faith
And I keep a straight face ’cause it hurts to smile
Countless times of runnin’ away, I had an upbringing
Of tough living, and my mother’s to blame
Was never far from crime, drugs and vandalism
My father died quite young as a cancer victim
My heart was broken, that’s when I started smokin’
‘Cause I couldn’t take the thought of my father goin’
It forever scarred my mind
And my teenage years as a delinquent were some of my hardest times
Had to leave the past behind, it's my time to grow
Decided to come to the church and try and find a home
And as time passed, began going down the right path
Life starts again and so I found my kind heart
This life I chose, I cross my heart and promise
That my relationship with God will always last the longest

[Hook]
I’m gainin’ my faith, and I’m losin’ the pain
I make my own destiny and I’m choosin’ my fate
And I pray that God has mercy on my soul
Yeah, I pray that God has mercy on my soul…

And I’m losin’ my faith, but I’m gainin’ the pain
The end is near, now I just wait for the day
And I pray that God has mercy on my soul
Yeah, I pray that God has mercy on my soul…

[Possessed]
I spent most of my life trying to guide souls to the light
Along the way I lost my faith and my devotion in Christ
Haunted by the darkness of doubt, closing my eyes
Have I followed teachings of a book totally blind?
Who truly wrote the first editions?
Am I living by the Lord’s words of wisdom or a work of fiction?
I can’t honestly serve religion
When as a priest, I’ve gradually lost trust in all church tradition
My test of faith and as an educated man
Can’t believe God created everything in seven days
Will I pass through Heaven’s gates and reach a better place?
When I’ve accepted money from the poor in my collection plates
Any exceptions for a Catholic priest?
Cold is the heart of man, and deafening the sound of chattering teeth
Transform from a man to a beast
Or are these the bitter rantings of a victim to the cancer disease?

[Hook x2]
Please…

Excerpt from Blade Runner (slightly altered):
“I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe…
All those moments will be lost in time… like tears in rain… time to die.”