Tell Me Twice

Obsessive compulsive
Obsessive compulsive
Obsessive compulsive

And I'm married to the game, so the arrogance barracks for my brain
But the rest of it alters
Desperate to solve this, but
I don't know where my sense of control is
I invest in success and my goals but the rest of my soul
Gets fed to the vultures
Vultures
Vultures
Guess I got a little pest on my shoulders
Testing the best of my boldnеss
Questioning all but accepting my quest for indulgеnce
So I'm extra insulted
Cause it knows that I'm destined to fold
Whenever I get told
What to fucking do next
It's like Russian roulette when my meds are revolvers
Was meant to go exercise
Left my home then surprise
Forget my phone went inside
Get my phone check the lights
Check the stove left and right
Checked them both twenty times
Correct it though twenty-nine
Mental notes then collide
Sweats all over my hands
Wet them both let them dry
Wet the soap then retry
Redness shows extra bright
Stress has grown tensified
Guess I'm so sensitized
Let it go let it slide
But when I don't then its like
Regret can grow then I die
Best I go get the psych
Lexapro gets prescribed
Instead I smoke and drink teds alone every night
This is OCD
As a kid I would think like nah bro that won't be me
But the grown me knows that it slowly shows I'm a prisoner that won't be freed
And its so greedy though leaves these flows easy
Don't leave me no please me
Don't tease me no please leave
But I have to accept it
I have to accept it
I have to accept it
Its trapped in my head where it snacks on my dread
And there's no damn lapse or an exit
Matching these meds with all this other crap that's ingested
Facts are neglected
Though its negative impact is effected
It has me obsessed with rap to perfect it
I guess its got cons and pros
Definitely more cons than pros
When I'm on the road
With a weak mind needing to touch everything three times
Seems like a bomb explodes
But upon the lows
I noticed that so many songs arose
So I face every day with my brain in a cage
In a way its been making me stronger so
I know that its mostly a burden
I know its the selfish type
I know I'm emotionally hurting
But I know there's a healthy side
Cause I know if I grow as a person
Then I know it can help with life
But that fucks with my OCD
So please there's no need to tell me twice
There's no need to tell me twice
There's no need to tell me twice