Tell Me

I'm just scared to say the word
Every time I open up my mouth I end up hurt
And I might seem a little heartless I might come off insecure
But I just play off all my fears by acting odd and immature
I'm like a broken record but on the inside
I'm feeling like they hate me even though I get the invite
I'm afraid to say that all my thoughts keeping me up til midnight
I can't even let you in when I'm afraid of what you'll find
It's irrational I know it, I can't even tell you so I'm acting like a poet
Man I'm writing all these songs to let the demons out
I'm seeing now, you became someone I couldn't breathe without
Now I'm hearing people shout
"Let me in, let me in" the closest I can get is with the words up off this pen
So I think I'm inadequate, never good enough for you or anybody
And for that I'm feeling stupid and for that I'm feeling sorry
I can't stop, I'm nervous, a wreck, a cunt
I'll take it, call me whatever the fuck you want
Call me scared, call me ugly, call me dumb, something else
But don't ever call me friend cause I feel better by myself

Tell me tell me, why do you think that I want to be anything more than I am
Tell me tell me why, do you wanna try, to break me from my shell
And raise me from this hell, to get me off this shelf
Just leave me here alone, I'll sit here on my own
Content with what it is, I'll turn it to a myth
I'm so scared, that you'll fall in love too, to fall in love with you
So tell me why I fall in love with you, you let me fall in love with you
Again