Tears of a Clown

[Intro]
Hahahaha, Devereaux
Look

[Verse 1: Cody Manson]
I'm slowly drowning, I can't reach the surface
Despite my imperfections you expect me to be perfect
I sacrificed it all and never questioned if it's worth it
I guess I'm just a clown who got swallowed by the circus
You couldn't purchase half the game that I've soaked up
When I look you in yo face it's hard not to choke up
I made a move on my own, was sick of being broke, bruh
I've been fighting snakes so long it turned me to a cobra
I'm still a loner in this room full of people
Because behind every plastic smile still hides a little evil
Her tears fallin' like they're drips out a needle
She said you're never here when I need you
I wish I didn't always have to leave you
And I really meant to call you back
Sometimes I get lost in the sauce and cannot recall where I'm at
All this alcohol and chemicals is really just a trap
I paint a picture of my struggle but they still can't picture that (Can't picture that)

[Chorus: Cody Manson]
I'm sick of depression, I'm sick of the pain (Sick of the pain)
It's takin' its toll on my brain (On my brain)
So much aggression with nowhere to aim (Nowhere to aim)
I need to release all this rage
So much temptation it's hard to maintain (To maintain)
That's why I still can't feel my face
Can't hide from attention, can't run from the fame (Run from the fame)
I gave up my life for the game (Up for the game)

[Verse 2: Cody Manson]
Yeah! Look
I live a fast life with no signs of slowing down
I hope when it's all said and done you're still around to hold me down
I've been going state to state, city to city, town to town
It's gettin' hard to think with all this smoke around
All I see is fake smiles sayin' they proud of me now
All most of 'em really want is something out of me now
You better not come around if you strivin' for clout
I'll probably end up smackin' fire out the side of your mouth
People think my life's great like I'm just partying now
They don't know when I leave my house it kills a part of me now
You can stab me in the heart and rip my arteries out
Just let me fuckin' bleed until I fall on the ground
Yeah! Maybe then I'll finally be at peace
But I highly doubt it 'cause I've given up everything just to chase a dream
There's no time for sleep when it's time to feed the beast
There's no rest for the wicked and money doesn't grow on trees

[Chorus: Cody Manson]
I'm sick of depression, I'm sick of the pain (Sick of the pain)
It's takin' its toll on my brain (On my brain)
So much aggression with nowhere to aim (Nowhere to aim)
I need to release all this rage
So much temptation it's hard to maintain (To maintain)
That's why I still can't feel my face
Can't hide from attention, can't run from the fame (Run from the fame)
I gave up my life for the game (Up for the game)

[Outro: Cody Manson]
All this alcohol and chemicals is really just a trap (Just a trap)
I paint a picture of my struggles but they still can't picture that (Picture that)
There's no time for sleep when it's time to feed the beast (Time to feed the beast)
There's no rest for the wicked and money doesn't grow on trees