Talks with Loneliness

[Intro]
It's crazy
It’s like
You wake up
Only to meet loneliness

[Verse 1]
I'm afraid to be alone sometimes and
I'm afraid to get outside my mind
I’m afraid of being vulnerable
Cause, what if I can never let you go, yeah
I can't lie, I run sometimes
I be weak for weeks and weeks them long nights I can't sleep
I want somebody next to me
That side of the bed is so cold
How I'm supposed to give my heart mind and my soul
To someone that I can't see, God please excuse me
I'm trying to be honest
Seeking you when I feel alone is the hardest
And my heart is just a canvas who is longing for an artist
Brush strokes on my soul I hope eventually I get the picture
Cause I can't crop you out cause who you are is in the mirror
Go figure, I'm just tryna figure it out
And make seven figures but my soul has been in a drought

[Chorus]
But I can’t make it reign unless I let you reign in my life
I can’t open up my heart unless I have you inside
All I ever really wanted was some one on my side
But loneliness has been the one that's always down for the ride
And I don’t always have the answers so I question your love
I don't always measure up but still you say I'm enough
All I ever really wanted was somebody to love
And you been knocking at my door but I can't open it up

[Verse 2]
So many mistakes I’ve made
So many of these games I've played
I always say I'm complicated
To cover up my real frustrations
I need patience I need time to rewind to when I was 12
I lost my trust and my mind
My mom I rejected, emotions felt neglected
Tryna let go of these memories and hold on to this necklace
That tells me that I'm so worth loving
But why did life to me wrong if I was so worth loving
I think the bigger picture is, is that you're so worth loving
And you still have my heart even when I have nothing

[Chorus]
But I can't make it reign unless I let you reign in my life
I can't open up my heart unless I have you inside
All I ever really wanted was some one on my side
But loneliness is not the one coming along for the ride
And I don't always have the answers, so I question your love
I don't always measure up but still you say I'm enough
All I ever really wanted was somebody to love
And you been knocking at my door so I'm open it up

[Outro]
At some point, I have to stop trusting in the things that I've
Use to protect me and surrender to the truth of what God says about me. You know just because I feel alone doesn't mean I am alone