Talking to Myself

Chattering

Clears throat

Shut the fuck up
Everyone in here shut up
Let me yell at myself
Shit
Just sit your ass down here
And let me talk to you
Er me
Let me talk to me

I’m a failure
In this game of life
I’m a failure
Don’t even wanna try
I’m a failure
So I just wanna cry
I’m a failure
I Can’t even die
X2

Why is my life
So half assed
I do everything
So half assed
If I keep it up
I won’t last
Now I’m putting my ass
On full blast
No mask
No el dorado
I’m no gold mound
Sober thoughts like lotto
1 in a million
I’m feeling the ceiling in
My mind
I’m opening minds
Opening minds
But I keep myself blind
Keep myself blind
And I’m sick of
The lies
Sick of my mind
Sickening thoughts
But then I get lost
No maze runner
But I’m killing them all
My Hollows go
From 7 To 1
School shooters
Now I’m holding the gun
Brain blast
Like I’m Jimmy Neutron
Nothing but a pawn
In this game of Life
Rejected myself
Now give me the knife
Reflected in mirrors
No tears to cry
I would ghost myself
But I’m scared to die
Ha that’s a lie
Tried too many times
Failure at life
And a failure at dying
I’m switching the thoughts
I’m flicking them off
But they’re flickering on
I did it all wrong
Big for no reason
No talent at all
Bottles up
It’s time for a fall
My colors are weak
My will is so meek
Not even a geek
Just working to eat
To say that I’m smart
Is a stretch you see
I’m flexible
But not all I can be
Don’t study for school
A failure will land
At the bottom
Of the pool
Cuz I’m a failure on land

I’m a failure
In this game of life
I’m a failure
Don’t even wanna try
I’m a failure
So I just wanna cry
I’m a failure
I Can’t even die
X6

But yeah
Anyway
Back to the topic on hand
You’re in college
And almost flunked out
I mean come on
That should put a fire
Under your ass
But, no
You sit here making music instead
Like, you’re already thinking of dropping out
And you’re over here making this song
Do your damn homework
Like, What the fuck man

I’m a failure
In this game of life
I’m a failure
Don’t even wanna try
I’m a failure
So I just wanna cry
I’m a failure
I Can’t even die
X2

Fiddling with history
And yet I’m a mystery
The redundancy is blistering
Now I sit here whispering
Open thoughts with open shots
Not all is lost yet I’m a fraud
With all this blood up on the floor
All my thoughts lead to pain and gore
Pain and gore
The art of war
All you do
Is watch that porn
Your girlfriend’s scorn
Will surely burn
And now you mourn
Your last girl’s norm
An open casket
With no dead man
Your name is written
And below it says
“He dies where he stands but
He lies here again”
I’m benign
With my rhymes
Ain’t got time
For my mind
I’m sublime
Like I drive
Down the high
Way of life
Fly like a kite
That means I’m too damn high
I choke on the smoke
Too hot for this time
But I’m flying like an eagle
And I’m trying like I’m the meal
But now it’s feeling oh surreal
And now I’m blue but bland like teal
Drinking till I keel
Shot for shot like Eminem
But I am not out of my mind
I just had to leave it behind

I’m a failure
In this game of life
I’m a failure
Don’t even wanna try
I’m a failure
So I just wanna cry
I’m a failure
I Can’t even die
X6