Talking to god

[Intro]
I just want to start this out by saying dear god
I know i haven't prayed to you, let alone Talked to you in a while
But i'm gonna need your help with this song okay?
I'm sitting here in your church, no phone cause i left it home outta respect for you
So while i'm Alone lets talk(lets talk about life)

[Verse 1]
Dear god i'm not tryna test your will, but i gotta question all these bills i have to pay
They say its free to live so why do we gotta pay all these fees
Why do i have to go to school just too look like a fool
Walking around my home town and they all laugh at me like i'm some kind of clown
Maybe i'm just broken like token but its just never spoken
All the clout I've gotten but i can still smell there body's rotten
I feel like i'm mentally traped in a jail cell
Like dear god am i going to heaven or am i going straight to hell
I just came out my shell, so you could spell it out for me
Yes i got a lot of clout, but also a lot of doubt i'll say it out loud
No i can't walk on water so don't throw me in a lake, Cause i know your not fake
But why do you have to take the good and leave us with the bad
No i'm not mad, but i know i'm not glade
Like dear god, i know i'm not the only one struggling, but you got me juggling my whole life
I get there are others just don't hide me under the covers like some fake lover
Dear god i pray to you and all the other's above
Push and shove for you i'mma get the dove
I know i'm a sinner please take that and turn me into a winner and not a spinner
Yeah my backs against the wall with a knife in it
No friends to depend on cause they where all just pretend, but i got you
So i guess you could say that i'm lucky, cause like cap to buckey your there for me tell the end of the line
Like r.l. stine you wrote me like a book, but still i can't come up with a hook or even cook
What should i do, what would you do

[Verse 2]
DEAR GOD, i know i went through my confession
So why do i have all this depression and emotions that i cannot express
When i've been going to church with all these people, but i still feel alone like a bird on its perch
I've always felt like a caged dog cause I've always this rage inside of me
But the doctor don't care they just jack me up on pills so they can give us more refills and more bills
Dear god do i belong on this earth, whats right and whats wrong with me
I know its apart of your plan but why did you curse me with the ability to makes these verses
Yeah i got a lil bit of a singing voice so i guess i got a choice
But then again i don't cause parents take our rights away and lock them up tight
But if we try and fight for them then where.the bad guy
Like why do they got all the power instead of you
Shouldn't it be the other way around,; cause you where the one who created us
We just try to cheat you every time we get a chance by taking a dance with the devil and his drank
Dear god I think i'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but its so much i need a funnel
Never mind cause you spilled your blood for us so this cup i'ma fill for you
I know this isn't enough to pay you back, but its a start
I just hope its enough for you to show me the way
Lead me away from temptation, and bring me closer to you

[Outro]
Dear god, i just hope this letter makes this better between us
So i'mma finish it by saying Amen and may we talk again