Take a Step Back

1995, born alive, already crusified
Demons in my eyes, fear up in my mind, ion wanna die
Blood around my hands, gotta be a man, how will I survive
Lights shining bright, goddamn caught a nigga by surprise

Moved out of mama's house went to Grannys Pops started hating on me
Mama said you made ya bed lie in it son I ain't waiting on ya
Told my teacher fuck school skipped class then started smoking weed
Late nights contemplating suicide back when I was at 15
All the kids, picked on me, laughed at me, yea used to call me slow
Fighting back and forth with Granny every night so I ran away from home
Gma gotta nigga tryna run shit but he cheating on the low
Feds watching every single move I make like a nigga on parole
Late nights I was outside with my cousin we was snorting blow
Hooked up off my meds got scared I was finna lose control
Grandma sent me to the mental institution I was tryna sell my soul
Been depressed for a long time when you see me you will never know
Voices in my head, say they want me dead so I gotta panic
Doctors on my ass, say I'm off my meds now I'm schizophrenic
I been down bad, running from the cops, boy I been a savage
If you didn't know a nigga you would probably think I was very average

1995, born alive, already crusified
Demons in my eyes, fear up in my mind, ion wanna die
Blood around my hands, gotta be a man, how will I survive
Lights shining bright, goddamn caught a nigga by surprise

Late nights in the booth, I'm the truth, that you already know
Probably be a ghostwriter but, my flow too original
Niggas see me in the hood, posted up, feet down ten toes
I been out on every block closing shop, everywhere well known
Ever since my father died, shit changed, nah it ain't been the same
Still I rise, head up, to the clouds, til they all know my name
Started rapping 2014, now a nigga tryna run the game
Met a couple local rappers, but I'm not looking for the local fame
Took a break, stepped back, for a minute, had to get my mind right
Time coming sooner than I know it, so I'm focused on the limelight
Pray to God on my knees head bowed fore I go to bed at night
Try to do the right thing but I'm lost searching for a better life
Independent own label no favors do it by my lonesome
Even though I used to work for a nigga ion need no one
Plugged in get respect cut the check now I'm getting all the funds
PCE still a team still a dream all my niggas having fun
Thought I had to quit, said I wasn't shit, kept on doing me
Every word I spit, I can back it up, ain't no hoe in me
Niggas still hate, niggas hella fake so they envy me
Making no mistakes, I can't let these haters take my energy

1995, born alive, already crusified
Demons in my eyes, fear up in my mind, ion wanna die
Blood around my hands, gotta be a man, how will I survive
Lights shining bright, goddamn caught a nigga by surprise