in this song devi talks about being a trans woman. she talks about her desires of being able to pass better as a cisgendered woman along with longing to fit into society’s gender norms, briefly touching on her horribly abusive family, and most prominently gender dysphoria.
“where is my mind” by the...
[Intro]
Hi, my name is Cats Milly, today is...
Friday, April 1st, 2011, uh.. This is..
Transgender video blog number two thousand three hundred
And ninety-five
Everything's gonna be fine
You just met me at a very strange time in my life
Uh...
[Verse 1]
No one fucking understands me
Have I fucking ever asked for a re-tweet?
Never in my life
One day in the distant future
I'll make the fucking purr-fect wife
House clean, dinner on when you get back
Hair nice as fuck, never ever fucking bitching on a rap track
Smelling like flowers and baby powder
With a moderately sized rack
But never mind that, uhhh...
I'm gonna learn how to write neat
Stop smoking cigarettes and stop eating red meat
Say "thank you" to strangers politely and wish 'em dead
Move away from home and still bitch to the internet
About the way my parents raised me
Then change my name again and not tell anybody
Maybe then I'll finally find my place in this
Fucked up stupid ass gender binary society
[Chorus]
And then?
And then finally feel happy?
Who the fuck knows?
Maybe
[Spoken]
Day four hundred, two weeks before my fourteenth birthday. I forced myself to vomit so I could stay home from school
Read Venus Envy for six hours, drank an entire bottle of cough syrup and then cried myself to sleep
[Verse 2]
What the fuck do I motherfucking look like
Swagging like Golf Wang but sounding like a butch dyke
When I say that I've had surgery
I mean I've had a ski mask stapled on permanently
Yeah, it certainly hurting me
But I won't never fucking take it off
The truth of the matter is whole world sprained my fucking feelings
But I'll just swag it off uhhhh... but...
I don't want no leggings, no tight-ass jeans
Low cut tees, just crucify me
Kay, here's my big plan
Dye my hair red
Join a punk band
And never fucking rap again
I don't give a shit, it
Works for me
People like it better
When I don't' say anything
Well whatever
Fuck life, it's just too fucking embarrassing
T Girl Video Blog #2395 was written by Devi McCallion.
T Girl Video Blog #2395 was produced by Devi McCallion.
Cats Millionaire released T Girl Video Blog #2395 on Sat Apr 02 2011.