Sweet Contradiction

[Verse 1]
I've been writing letters about where my head is
Don't know if it's healthy or if it helps me, but whatever
I've been meditating while I'm medicated
'Cause I know too well, hope is easy to sell when the feeling is faded

[Chorus]
I've been avoiding direction but wanna see where I'm going
I'm still cravin' adventure while I've been stayin' at home
I'm a sweet contradiction of someone shrinking while growing
I'm not ready and I haven't left yet
Oh, I've been avoiding direction but wanna see where I'm going
I'm still cravin' adventure while I've been stayin' at home
I'm a sweet contradiction of someone shrinking while growing
I'm not ready and I haven't left yet

[Post-Chorus]
Oh, but I'm on my way, but I'm on my way
I haven't left yet

[Verse 2]
I've been checking my vitals, 'cause my heart's been quiet
I put two fingers to to my neck just to check I'm alive still
And it feels endless, and I'm only at the start
Man, I don't get this, like running full speed in the dark

[Chorus]
I'm avoiding direction but wanna see where I'm going
I'm still cravin' adventure while I've been stayin' at home
I'm a sweet contradiction of somemone shrinking while growing
I'm not ready and I haven't left yet
Oh, I've been praying to someone though I know barely know Him
I've got great expectations, meanwhile, the bar is in Hell
I'm a sweet contradiction of someone sinking while floating
I'm not ready and I haven't left yet

[Post-Chorus]
Oh, but I'm on my way (I'm on my way), but I'm on my way
I haven't left yet
Oh, but I'm on my way (I'm on my way), but I'm on my way
I haven't left yet (Oh)

[Bridge]
Ooh, I'm on my way

[Outro]
I'm afraid of rejection, but I still wanna be chosen
Though I know I gotta love me on my own
I'm a sweet contradiction, but at least I know it
I'm not ready and I haven't left yet
But I'm on my way