Swallow

I have no reason to think this season is in itself to blame
The phone it doesn't ring
And so I do my thing
What time is it back home?

"You've got no messages today"
"I find no fax I'm sorry to say"
"I won't check again"
Another Dover stop
If I jump from the hill top?
Will that just be vain?

So now I'm swallowing my pride
I've got little left to hide
(I'm not going home tonight)
Now I'm swallowing my pride
And I don't want you to decide
(I'm not going home tonight)
She said my dreams are only lies
I can't so why do I even try?
(I'm not going home tonight)
Now I'm swallowing my pride
Was it really worth the price?
(I'm not going home tonight)

I'll try to call again
You may pick up and then
Here is your chance
You can make me feel small
And wish I hadn't called
Or you'll save my life

So now I'm swallowing my pride
I've got little left to hide
(I'm not going home tonight)
Now I'm swallowing my pride
And I don't want you to decide
(I'm not going home tonight)
She said my dreams are only lies
I can't so why do I even try?
(I'm not going home tonight)
Now I'm swallowing my pride
Was it really worth the price?
(I'm not going home tonight)