​survivorsguilt

[Intro]
(szama)

[Verse 1]
If I cut my hands off, you'd still expect me to play
I wish for just one fucking second you'd get off my case
But I don't have the strength to tell you off
And I don't have the heart to give it up
But I don't have the stats to show it off
I'll take my fucking head and blow it off

[Verse 2]
I don't know why I'm still here
The sound's too loud, it hurts my ears
I'm a payload brimming with toxins and anger
Man down, enemy spotted, in danger
Aim up, hitting the target like a ranger
Halo sit on my head so disgraceful

[Verse 3]
Way too demanding, I can't fucking stand it
Take one, pass out, then everybody vanish
Take five, brеak a leg, break into a panic
Stop tryna relatе to me, you'd never understand it
You couldn't comprehend it, no, no, you could never get it
You take my life into your hands then ask how I'm affected
Ask a different question
How have you been holding up?
Not what I expected
I might have to dead it
You really threw a wrench in my plans
You put a metaphorical gun in my hand
Another four years 'fore I'm falling again
And another lifetime 'fore I know what it meant

[Bridge]
I've been known to disappoint, but you knew that
I can't even seem to find my voice
I guess that I don't have a choice, but I knew that
So I might as well just go for it
Fuck this and all the rest of that dumb shit
Work me so hard, now I can't even function
Crown with no king, all flash, no substance
No motivation, waste time in abundance

[Verse 4]
I'll drown in the lake and get burned by a matchstick
I've got no sense of hate, but I hate how you're acting
I fell on my face and now everyone's laughing
Make my choice, get upset and then wonder what happened
I'll fail anyway, I can't even fight back
Name one fucking quality, I probably lack it
And I can't work I'm too distracted
Tired of these people talking down, man, I had it (szama)
If I cut my hands off you'd still expect me to play
I wish for just one fucking second you'd get off my case
And when it's all said and done, I still really have no clue
Who to blame for it all, I don't know what I should do
And when I'm homeless with a needle in my arm
I really hope that you move on
And forget that you're the one that made me lose