Survive

[Chorus: Will Connolly]
I don't wanna be special
I just wanna be chill as life will allow
--special
I just wanna be chill as life will allow
--special
I just wanna be chill as life will allow
--special
I just wanna be chill as life will allow

[Verse: MiMiLock]
Tired of the misery, I’m tired of feeling awful
Freak of nature, loser, geek, whatever, I know I’m responsible
For any goal I ever set in my life
Can’t have no future without making sure my present is right
I wanna chill with the guys, get a new whip, take a drive
At 3 AM, just for them nights that I be losing my mind
I’m flipping loops all the time, therapy through all the rhymes
Ain’t no one holding my hand to help me do more than survive
Ever since my grandmama died, been in a different mode
Feeling under pressure like I’m stuck under the mistletoe
But I ain’t done no kissing, though, can’t even roll a little a dro
I stay on go, I’m getting older, I can’t waste time anymore
My adolescence gave me setbacks and abandonment issues
It’s too much wrong with me, can’t solve it just by handing some tissues
They say when climbing up the ladder, take your mans and them with you
Don’t be surprised by random battles, just bring cannons and missiles
Swear if I blam, it’s gon hit you, it shouldn’t get to that point
I feel like Neku sometimes, I just be sick of this noise
But Imma stay writing lines, cause they ain’t sick of my voice
I been expanding my world, slowly, but surely, my choice
Is to not ever be a zombie, worried bout if they hire me or they fire me
I’ll beat the fuck out social anxiety
Always felt so opposed to the rest of society
Like Nimona, ain’t gon fit in, just gon find where I thrive
So I can know I’m alive, finna be 20, can’t be in the house just sad every night
Maybe in 20 years I’ll reminisce and have a good cry
When I can finally get to process all the shit that I seen
That turned me into this beast
But I been sick bout this dream, so for now
I’ll keep it pushing, won’t be missing no beats
They like “how she always looking so indifferent to beef?”
Cause I wild out every hook, that’s why they itching for feats
Still do that shit for the free

[Chorus: Will Connolly]
I don't wanna be special
I just wanna be chill as life will allow
--special
I just wanna be chill as life will allow
--special
I just wanna be chill as life will allow
--special
I just wanna be chill as life will allow