Survival Means Nothing

[Produced by Kato]

[Verse 1: Almighty U-Sorcerer]
First off, rest in peace to my nigga Faneto
Lord have mercy if I find the one who killed my amigo
Man, that nigga was my brother, and I cannot take the pressure
I remember when we used to say we'd graduate together
Cops coming for us so we would run faster
Smoke weed all day and get lung cancer
And it hurts cause for a week, I heard nothing from y'all
No condolences, like he was worth nothing to y'all
That's how I know that survival worthless
It ain't the one who live who the fittest, the one who expires first is
When my nigga died, it left Rambo's spirit devoured
They killed his brother, he breaking down at the visiting hours
I feel responsible, I heard the shots outside
Silent for a few minutes, then the cops outside
Then I peep out the window to the ambulance
I saw his body and then lost my mind

[Hook x2]
I know all the times were hard
I know that you've been feeling down
If you only knew how I'm feeling for you

[Verse 2: Almighty U-Sorcerer]

[Hook]

[Verse: gamemast15r]
Every day I wake up I wanna die
Full black bags underneath my eyes
My stomach hurts, I try to force out a tear but nothing falls
I’ve tried to pray to god but in the end nothing calls
I don’t think I’ll even make time to hit forty
Went to therapy, it ain’t do shit for me
And I don’t wanna wait painful long years
Just to see results when I’m tryna make it to next year
Fuck it, I feel indifferent
I want to feel something but I can feel everything slippin’
It is what it is, feeling it since I was a kid
Since I was learning to walk and how to take a shit
I’ve done cried so many tears it grows slowly some crops
And I’ve done seen so much my heart is cold solely for cops
And I’ve done felt the pain, the sun turning to rain
Forget it, my eyes closed; I flow solely for pain
I can’t sleep, I can’t eat; I can’t fight for my life
If I can’t even take a stand and fight for what’s right
I’m my own enemy, through desperation and health
To predict criticism and slowly deflect it from myself
I don’t think ahead, I just drink in bed
Lying to my reflection in the ceiling instead
I can’t take criticism without it hitting too close to home
Whether it’s in real life or on my mobile phone
I’m stubborn, I’m tired of apologizing
For every single fucking that I do, but I’m not Hopsin
I can’t blame all of my problems on outside influences
Especially when these influences are dim to it
Fuck it, I’m fucking corny and I can’t keep a topic
I’m doing the best I can but I can’t be the prophet
I can’t sell, I won’t be famous and I can’t make a profit
This shit I used to do for fun but what’s the point when I stop it
The Kane album ain’t done, and I’m still jumping ahead
And I wanna tie all loose ends, quality only the best
But I’m not a fucking rapper so I can’t come up with shit
That’s why I can’t finish anything, I can’t finish the script
Who the fuck gonna care, when I’m buried into the ground
Who the hell gonna remember me five years from now
Who the hell gonna believe me when I say I want an out
What am I saying? I’m too afraid of everything, that’s what I’m about
Panic attacks, fill my mind when I worry bout people
It hammers me back, nail in the coffin, I’m out people
I shouldn’t worry about other people’s views
But my self confidence low, worryin’ bout deceitful views
I’m easily seen through too when I walk with creases in my shoes
I walk the path that I walk; the ghosts are people to
I feel it coming over me, I'm biting the steel
Every minute of my life I know that the fight is real
I look down the empty void and I see the light ahead
I gotta hold it all in like I got a sniper’s breath
No chance in hell I want to deal with the trife instead
Only takes a couple seconds to choose between life and death
They tell me to think about all the pain I would cost
About all the brains I've lost
I could be anything I want but I won't amount to shit
That's why I wanna blow my fucking brains out to bits
Only 6 more bars until the moment is done
And all the time I have left in the decision is none
I'm not prepared for any second left in the future
I'm not prepared for all the pain and chance to lose her (life)
But I've accepted my fate and I wish you all well
But now it's time for me to go to hell
Survival Means Nothing