SUN

i never gave a damn about a sunset.
i never cared to look up at the sky.
watched my sister’s birth & my brother’s death
& never stopped to ask Him “why?”
i never tried to find the gold
at the rainbow’s end,
& i never once a secret told
to a childhood friend.
i never tried to count the stars
in orion’s belt.
when the earth & moon aligned with mars
not a feeling was felt.
i really couldn't give a shit
about a solar eclipse,
& i really cant't bе bothered
with marigolds or tulips.
i nevеr really notice
the beauty of the trees,
the butterflies, the dragonflies,
the ladybugs & bees.
i haven't looked for shapes in clouds
since i was a youngling,
& i don’t give a damn

if i never hear a blue jay sing.
mountains aren’t majestic
if you don’t pay them any mind.
my vision is fine. perfect, really.
but i might as well be blind.

all this looking down
will surely be my demise.
but i’d rather die than wake up in time
to watch a fucking sunrise.