Summer Vibin

(Verse 1)
Livin life the way they say I should
Doin shit the only way I could
But they've never understood
Who I am beneath the shell
Yeah it's a hard to fuckin sell
All my life I've been misjudged
Treated as if I wasn't damaged
All of life's lies came prepackaged
Fed to me and encouraged
But I rejected their thinking
Fought to stop my sinking
But it's hard staying afloat
Feeling like a joke with a boat
I'm the captain with no plan
Pushing endlessly like a madman
I fall short every step I take
Trying faking it till I break
Under pressure or I flake
But how could I make that mistake?
Too much responsibility
Too much shit reliant on me
Need to be strong, it's what they see
Find the silver lining possibly
I have to keep going onwards
Or I'm nothing going downwards
In my own personal psych ward
It's where I might go
To go off fuckin psycho
Breakdown like I'm in limbo
But it's seasonal shit
Mentally broken type shit

(Hook - Anabell J)
I've been of livin
Just summer vibin
Yeah I've been livin summer vibin
I've been of livin
Just summer vibin
Yeah I've been livin summer vibin

(Verse 2)
Self doubt, self hate what they actuate
Try to create it like it's a trait
Meant to be fuckin genetic
Oh so prophetic it's poetic
Brainwashing is magnetic
That's why leaving can be drastic
Staying pessimistic
Isn't realistic, it's manic
I need something therapeutic
My inner voice brings judgment
Points out flaws that seem dominant
My happiness becomes absent
In its wake
I'm gone for the moment
Shit can be post traumatic
It's why so many get apathetic
Live a lie like an actor
Cause honesty isn't really a factor
Being truthful isn't better
Conforming is all that does matter
I refuse to live how you say
Cause I just can't live that way
I've been alienated
Also left feeling isolated
Sorry I can't fit a damn mold
I'm broken by what you sold
Judgment is what I was told
And the only way I feel bold
Is in music that you all ignored
Pretending to care is all you can afford
Say you give a damn I'll be floored
Cause that bullshit is my reward
For putting up with being forced
To take what you fucking enforced

(Hook - Anabell J)
I've been of livin
Just summer vibin
Yeah I've been livin summer vibin
I've been of livin
Just summer vibin
Yeah I've been livin summer vibin