Summer High

I'm living in the prison of the present
I'm finding it so hard to stay connected
Alcohol and weed big investment
My drinking and smoking isn't excessive, no!
I need to find what sets me apart
Does it take a lifetime to know who you are? (x2)

Am I gonna die young from all these drugs?
Am I gonna grow old and fall in love?

Don't look at me like I'm just a kid
Or you'll take everything I say and discredit it
I think the rhymes that I'm spitting have relevance
Relative to the language I'm speaking
Skeleton of the self I'm preaching
You don't know me yet but you will
You're in the danger zone, I could kill
Knock old down for new to build
Rap's my skill, developed of my own volition
Am I living in reality or is this fiction?
I've got a prediction that none of this is real
Not me, not you, or anything we feel
We lack purpose, but only on the surface
So is it worth it?
Keep moving on
Is it worth it?
Or are we already gone?

Am I gonna die young from all these drugs?
Am I gonna grow old and fall in love?

It's time to get summer high
Even if it's cold outside
Rain or shine, I am down
Come with me, I'm reaching out (x2)

What are you afraid of? The dark? Dying young?
I'm afraid to get sober so I drink til I'm numb
Like I said before I am young, just having fun
Not overdone I am the one, you know?
The one who makes it big, the one who grows up with a family and kids
At least I think that's what it wants, the program of my body
So I'll do the opposite become nobody
Or maybe I'm programmed to fight
And retaliate against it with all my might
I go outside on the darkest of nights
To let go of everything I keep locked up tight
And I get summer high (x2)

It's time to get summer high
Even if it's cold outside
Rain or shine, I am down
Come with me, I'm reaching out

Sad high, when I'm not even alone
Sometimes just happier on my own
Each day I grow more curious about love
Sit and wonder if I'll ever be enough
Being sober isn't always that tough
Hidden love, passion beyond purpose
Fake it til it's working cuz on the surface I'm doing fine
System hacked, mastermind, line by line
Loop by loop, without a group, no substitute for security
My whole life more fragile than I'll ever see
I'm dead to me confessedly
A mess of meat a waste of me (x2)