Summer Clothes

Well, the first time it hit
I was poised and ready to ignore it
But now it's back and
I think I'm finally starting to understand
So if you need me, I'll be out on the front steps
Filling empty bottles with cigarettes
Spending all of my free time in one place
Disappearing, leaving, oh, just this one trace

When snow falls before leaves
And I'm trapped outside in summer clothes
I remember why I
Refuse to realize what everyone knows
I can't smell the city anymore
Like they can't hear me pounding at the door

I wasn't ready for that, oh no
The silence on your end of the phone
I wasn't ready for that, oh no
I wasn't ready to be alone
I'll still see you on Christmas and at Thanksgiving
The hardest part is knowing I'll go on living
Easily without you there guiding me through
I'll never need you now as much as I need to

When snow falls before leaves
And I'm trapped outside in summer clothes
I remember why I
Refuse to realize what everyone knows
I can't smell the city anymore
Like they can't hear me pounding at the door

When I see you now, it feels so strange
But I look around and then I say
"Well, I'm at home"

When snow falls before leaves
And I'm trapped outside in summer clothes
I remember why I
Refuse to realize what everyone knows
I can't smell the city anymore
Like they can't hear me pounding at the door