Suicide on My Mind

[Intro]
Suicide on my fucking mind
I don’t wanna die
Yeah, yeah

Fuck the clout take it back
I just want love but these bitches don’t fuck with that (yah)
Fucked with that bitch off cap
Winning this shit for my team like a running back

Fuck the hoes they don’t know
All of the pain that I feel when I’m all alone

Go and kill every show
People might think but I’m not on my pinnacle

Lately I’m feeling so spiritual
Wake up some days and I feel it’s a miracle (yuh)

I’m a unique individual
Money, go get it, I make it a ritual (yuh)

Call it a ritual you think it’s mystical
I think it’s practical, you don’t think tactical
Thinking mathematical, this is a ladder flow
I’m skipping levels now, I want the pot o’ gold

I don’t give a fuck about the other hoes
‘Cuz my old ways got my brain goin’ loco
And the cocoa got my days moving slo-mo
On the low dough missed cheesin’ for the photos

Gotta phone home to my mom that I’m so-so
Sorry ‘bout Christmas, always in my no show
One more cuff from the popo and my P-O
Gonna lock me up for my next show (yeah)

[Chorus]
Suicide, on my fucking mind, I don’t wanna die
I just wanna live, but this life, gets so hard sometimes

I don’t know what’s right
Yeah what’s wrong, I can’t find the time

In my out of line, happiness, it’s so hard to find

Suicide, on my fucking mind, I don’t wanna die
I just wanna live, but this life, gets so hard sometimes

I don’t know what’s right
Yeah what’s wrong, I can’t find the time

In my out of line, happiness, it’s so hard to find

Suicide, pull it to my brain, I can’t maintain
Ima go insane, ‘cuz this light, only brings pain

Slit wrists, I don’t feel shit, as my heart skips
Close my eyes, I’m in paradise, I won’t miss this

[Verse 1]
Everything about me that everybody ever knew
People want to think I was the happy king of school
But I barely keep my cool, with a smile on my face
Kids, just slow her down, this life ain’t a race

And the people that hating on you, yeah they all fake
But I’m closed, break about, what their parents all make
But I’ll promise that you’ll get there
Know that it’s not fair
If you wanna die, talk to someone that feels great

And I know that your heart hurts
Trust me, I’ve been there
Life takes a sacrifice that some people can’t bear
Stay strong stay around, It’ll get better
Take a lot up on that suicide letter

The pain inside will never go away
You can learn how to deal with it more every day
And it won’t feel the same as it did when you were broken
Although it won’t leave, your heart will still open

[Outro]
Suicide, on my fucking mind, I don’t wanna die
I just wanna live, but this life, gets so hard sometimes

I don’t know what’s right
Yeah what’s wrong, I can’t find the time

In my out of line, happiness, it’s so hard to find

Suicide, pull it to my brain, I can’t maintain
Ima go insane, ‘cuz this light, only brings pain

Slit wrists, I don’t feel shit, as my heart skips
Close my eyes, I’m in paradise, I won’t miss this