Suicide Hope

One in four young people in the uk are feeling 'unable to cope'
Due to an increase in mental health issues

With Suicide rates continuing to rise

A recent survey suggests the number

Of those seeking help for suicidal thoughts
Has tripled since the start of lockdown

The most at risk are men aged 25-34

The thunder in my mind when it strikes
The
Sound of the clap and smack the behind my eyes, I
Don't expеct cries or for you to pitty my demise
I just want you to bе wise and not to listen to the lies
To understand my cries are my motivation to write bro
No guy taught me how to figure out my right flow
Only I being shy and the epitome of broke
Cause me to stand on my own and carry my own hope, see
I wanna turn this PTSD to a PHD
Have the world take back all the bad things that it gave to me
And give away my pay to my friends and my family
And try and give aid to every single charity

Now tell me now I ain't got clarity
Tell me now about my lack of sanity
Causes I don't understand how I show more humanity
Yet I'm the broke with their own mind is being mad at me

I suffer chronic pain every day
But that's only an 8th of the weight on brain, yeah
How can i just wait and perpetuate hate

Like that won't be on my plate when im waiting for the grave yeah

Maybe I'm lucky cause iv been there
Looked the devil in the eye and it's I now I'm real scarred
You wanna know why greenguykai dosnt feel fear
Cause Kai has had it by his side for over 5 years

Thats desensitisation
I lost fear and I lost patience
All this gear, medication
With bad ideas and temptations

Thats, wanting to die cause your not right
Have you ever asked your dad to go get a knife, and
Slit your throat cause you know your too broke to do it right
Thinking thats the only way to get the pain to subside

See when the light in my life wants to fade and die
And I'm only one man who can take so much life
This ain't just a crash that happened on a bike
This is all of my past that's crashing in my mind

See, when you experience pain daily

Waking up in the night like a crying baby
Riddled with worst shocks, so shaky and achy
You realise that in life there ain't no real safety

Just this idea that I remember vaguely

Before my mind turned against me and went crazy
There's a war in head and it's been as of laterally
Like either side is Palestinian or Israeli

See, There's shots fired, I'm tired, my brains been rewired
The Violence of the tyrants is real and its vibrant
The silence is a silence that won't allow me to have silence
I'm trying, I'm trying but I'm needing some guidance

My horizons are dying
Body expiring
I try and grow my hair
I try and be a lion
Be strong, be brave
Don't be a rock be a diamond
But the pressure thats needed has formed my defiance

I've tried, I really have
Thank you mum and dad for choosing the good and not the bad
Thank you Jake, thank you pops, thank you val, thank you han
Thank you every single person who made me who I am

Katie, Chris, mykal, are the saints in my bible
But there is so many more people who make this pain worth while
Life will try a break you, you are not a tile

You are mind, your a body, your a soul, your a smile

And this is not my suicide note, Nah, this is my suicide hope
And i will go through this pain every singe day
If it inspires a life to try and cope

If you are suffering out there speak to someone
Big love