Suicide

[Chorus: Yoshi]
I wanna breathe smoke (smoke) and take it all in (in)
I used to have hopes now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this buildup while it's corroded
Instead put my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless
I wanna breathe smoke (smoke) and take it all in (in)
I used to have hopes now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this buildup while it's corroded
Instead put my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless

[Verse 1: Hex Rated]
I'm at the end of my road I got no hope left
This life is a test I failed with an F
Grab the ropе what's next?
Rigor mortis I'm a corpse and I was born for this death (Born for this dеath)
Slit veins blood drips my brain's sick shit
Every day I wish that I didn't have this fucking chemical imbalance
Suicide all the time steady running through my mind
Slit my wrists or stay alive?
I don't really know why I feel this way
Steady stuck in a maze like it's Groundhogs Day
No joy no light just dark like night
I'm killing everybody on sight I might write rhymes to the rhythm then end my life
End your life?
I think I might think I might try suicide
Suicide?
Yeah that's tight no more pain no more life
I could end it all in just one night with a razor blade wrist or a shotgun blast

[Dialogue]
Therapist: Shotgun blast?
Hex Rated: Yeah that's right. Hey yo Blizz record this shit
Blizz: Fuck this fuck music I'm out. Where's my fucking gun fuck it!
Audience: No! Holy- no! (Screaming)

[Chorus: Yoshi]
I wanna breathe smoke (smoke) and take it all in (in)
I used to have hopes now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this buildup while it's corroded
Instead put my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless
I wanna breathe smoke (smoke) and take it all in (in)
I used to have hopes now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this buildup while it's corroded
Instead put my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless

[Verse 2: Yoshi and Friends]
Is it really worth it to be staying alive?
Same question every day when I open my eyes
I would rather sleep than to celebrate life
Lately I'm not even motivated to write
Not myself locked away tight
Not so well hate seeing the good die
Can't say that I've been having a good time
Everyday I wish that me and them could've traded sides
Time won't fix this it won't take me away from the pain inside
But I've got an idea maybe drinking iodine
I go back to having bottles of formaldehyde
But there's one thing holding me back
How am I supposed to tell my friends and family goodbye?
Leave a rotting corpse in a closet for my homies to find? What a delight
Sobbing faces reading some note explaining my suicide
Or should I just disappear and leave the explanation to the mind?
Ah fuck it they probably wouldn't even notice I was gone for at least five nights
I think sometimes I'ma fall asleep and never wake up the minute after I close my eyes
Well surprise. You're still here
Dammit Hex you're so right
Keep this razor have no fear
That's the spirit homie bleed it up, split intestines
With hopes to die mama don't cry
But I'm saying goodnight cause I'll be gone before you can say a word
I'll be dead before this day turns to night

[Chorus: Yoshi]
I wanna breathe smoke (smoke) and take it all in (in)
I used to have hopes now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this buildup while it's corroded
Instead put my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless
I wanna breathe smoke (smoke) and take it all in (in)
I used to have hopes now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this buildup while it's corroded
Instead put my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless

[Dialogue]
Hex Rated: Yo lately I've just been so fucking depressed that every night I have these fucked up dreams. I just go to the studio and then in the middle of recording I just pull out a fucking shotgun and just blow my brains all over the roof
Friend: Yeah tha - that's pretty fucked up man
Hex Rated: I know right? I should probably do something about it. I've been thinking about going and getting some therapy what do you think?
Friend: Yeah it might work. I got a counselor lately
Hex Rated: Really?
Friend: Yeah it's been doing pretty good
Hex Rated: Fuck all right I'ma go and get some therapy yo peace out
(Fade out)