[Chorus]
Loving you feel like a suicide
But when I look into your eyes, baby I feel so alive
I’mma love you like it’s do or die
I don’t think that I’mma rise, smoking something to get high
Tell me what your demons do at night
When you smoking by yourself, chasing me like I’m a high
Loving you feel like a suicide
But when I look into your eyes, baby I feel so alive
[verse 1]
Fuck I want to blame you bad but I know that this my fault
I’m stuck inside my head, popping percs like I’m my pop
I wish that I was normal, girl I want to be ok
You forcing me to eat, I wouldn’t even hold a plate
And now I’m all up in my head, still I want to die
I know that I’ve been sick, I tell my momma I’m alright
Keep a hammer on my left, got to hit it on my right
They say I’m blowing up but I feel like this my whole life
Man they tell me I’ll be famous I don’t think that shit gon change me
Seen a lot of money already that shit don’t phase me
I been getting them bitches that’s just how my mama raised me
10 fucking ms up on my page this shit still feel like it’s a daydream
[Chorus]
Loving you feel like a suicide
But when I look into your eyes, baby I feel so alive
I’mma love you like it’s do or die
I don’t think that I’mma rise, smoking something to get high
Tell me what your demons do at night
When you smoking by yourself, chasing me like I’m a high
Loving you feel like a suicide
But when I look into your eyes, baby I feel so alive
[verse 2]
It feel like it hurt and then I feel ok
I’m scared of the mirror can’t ever look inside my face
She say “I wish you could hear all of them things you say”
I’m tying this rope baby that’s gon’ take me away
Yeah, don’t let my nephew know that I was in pain
Tell him I’m sick when you digging my grave, yeah
Don’t act like me when you feeling this way
I had to go and see your daddy today
[Chorus]
Loving you feel like a suicide
But when I look into your eyes, baby I feel so alive
I’mma love you like it’s do or die
I don’t think that I’mma rise, smoking something to get high
Tell me what your demons do at night
When you smoking by yourself, chasing me like I’m a high
Loving you feel like a suicide
But when I look into your eyes, baby I feel so alive
Su!c!de was written by Avery Freeman.