Stumbling Still

Waiting for you, waiting for them
To finally come along
But it's just me in my own head
So Jesus what do you want
But I've watched the mercury fall
And the winter come
Waiting for something good

I feel the rain washing away
The older lives that we led
Oh but Jesus, what I would give
Just to be wanted again
But I've watched the mercury fall
And the winter come
Waiting for something I know

But I've been stumbling still
Waiting to fall
Out on my own
In front of you all
And they talk talk talk talk talk
Under their breath
Just to remind me
That I'm not heaven sent
You know we're nothing to them

Can't get ahead
Can't get a break
I'm just limping along
Another cynical civilian
Stuck inside of the walls
But I've watched the mercury fall
And the winter come
Waiting for something good

So just forget it, leave it alone
I have walked 500 miles, now I'm going home
When your young gun seconds are done and through
Maybe if you're lucky you'll get older with someone you know

But I've been stumbling still
Waiting to fall
Out on my own
In front of you all
And they talk talk talk talk talk
Under their breath
Just to remind me
That I'm not heaven sent
You know we're nothing to them

I've been struggling to help myself (I've been struggling, too)