Stoned before I function

Remember what was said about you
When darkness was all around you
And nobody believed in your sobriety
Remember how your soul allowed you
To feel new when I found you
To bask in all your sadness
And make love to the madness

Baby I don't feel like falling
Wading in the winter water
Maybe when I reach the shore line
You will be there waiting
I don't wanna be a martyr
Stagnant with my trauma
Holding on to nothing
Stoned before I function
Stoned before I function

Maybe God was testing you
For shaming all thе best of you
Hiding from the pictures
Chopping up your mixturеs
What if I up and left with you
Fed into the depths with you
Left with no conditions
Money or prescriptions

Baby I don't feel like falling
Wading in the winter water
Maybe when I reach the shore line
You will be there waiting
I don't wanna be a martyr
Stagnant with my trauma
Holding on to nothing
Stoned before I function

Time don't forget
Keep your regrets
Keep inhaling
Final reset
Keeping in check
I keep failing