Stoned apologies

Did you do it for the *art
Or was the art only a part of it
What's the use of marksmanship
W/out honing a target in?
What's the point of friendship
If it bends until it's broken?
The pointing of a finger
If the goal is out of focus?
*Juggling emotions
Till the wrist wobble
And lose it
The truth is only known
When we get swallowed in ruin--
When the house of cards crashes
Laying flat on a mattress
Staring through the mirror at a reflection
And the voids massive
@Avoid tragic
And you bottle up a bomb
The timer ticks silent
Going off, when you're feeling on
Showing off
Till your older
'n then it's over, huh?
The gluttony of
Pride bеating in younger mes
*Luckily evеntually
That bridge becomes london
And all the worry[2]
That had[2] your heart pumping was nothing
And all your spells of aTTRAction no longer function
[Sitting] alone at luncheons is no longer done willingly
Filling these
Gaps becomes
Somewhat of a task

[midwestern Dad talks]

You never *asked for it
But picked pass
When your lap was a mat for it
And let time do the talking
You felt fine
Till it winded down
Abruptly
And turned your body,@ bag
Making way for the punching
*Something so serious
Taken lightly and loosely
Mind misdirected
Outside lighting a loosie--
"never wanted this to happen"--
Fell @ flat as a doozie
Regrets of how you acted
Bubble up like a jacuzzi
*Prince charming
Prince of heart-harming
Destruction
*Who pressed the right buttons
'n died under the suction
Of the *situation
@pressure banging
And he couldn't take it--
Making these excuses
A refusal that he could've made it
@Better
Forever claiming that he's clever
I *guess that was an off week
Hot seat, [burning] him awfully
Haughty
And then alone again
W/ a phone'n yet
Unable to phone a friend