Steep Roads

I wish I knew that sirens wore the dress of damsels in distress
I wish I chose a better quest, I wish I never made this mess
I wish I didn't witness all the fires raging in the nest
I wish I wasn't burning out, I wish I didn't have to rest
I wish I'd trusted my gut, I wish I wasn't torn
I wish I wasn't so attracted to this condescending tone
I wish died when I was born
I wish I wasn't such a burden to the people that I've known
But most of all
I wish I had a pretty smile, instead I wear a broken frown
I wish my anger was controllable, I wish I wouldn't shout
I wish I loved myself enough to understand what its about
I wish I never went to hell to try and pull some people out

I wish you never fell, I wish you'd recognized the spell
I wish to tell you that I made it, Oh I wish to wish you well
I wish that each of you would know I didn't leave you in the end
But who am I supposed to love? You keep abandoning yourselves

And that's the end of every wish, its the start of taking action
Everlasting satisfaction will result from gaining traction
And avoidance of the plague that fronts as glittering distraction
I refuse to waste my life a slave to chemical reactions

Yes, I hurt 'cause I'm human in the end
But I would rather fall apart than spend a second on pretending
That I've figured out a way to keep it together
When almost everyone I've loved does not believe in forever

And so nevermore will I set out to explore
Someone else's ocean if they're rowing with their broken oars
I pore the sweat from every pore and furthermore
I'm sure I swore the war was over - soul is sore from burning bridges shore to shore

I can't believe it came to this, but I'm really glad it did
Look ahead, don't reminisce: Life is freedom off the grid
Its exactly what it is, they could have listened but they wouldn't
Disrespected and dismissed, but which one of your heroes wasn't?

Its not the end though… I highly doubt it
I'm totally surrounded but I'll find my way around it
If I can not make the time for you I hope you pardon me
I need to fight another day to keep my heart from hardening

One more heavy weight is sinking right before my eyes
Anchored to its anger, she forever fails to recognize
That our innocence is never murdered, its euthanized
Light a candle through the darkness when the truth is so despised

Despite the sorrow that I feel on your behalf
Its only right that I admit I think of you sometimes and laugh
At how eternity is traded for a moment of pleasure
That rates its ugly head in anger when the source has been severed

Several attempts, the survivors are few
I know you're listening to this, you know I'm grateful for you
You proved to me that standing up to face yourselves is doable
And with that act of faith, I learned from you that mountains are movable

You're beautiful! You've made a full recovery, I saw it!
Don't deny the good in you! Don't pretend that you don't know it
You never show it out of fear that you're seeking approval
And THAT in itself is rare, I dare to say its unusual

I know you've parted ways and faced your loneliness as well
And found the heaven that they claim to live in is a living hell
And that the freedom that they boast of is another prison cell
And that you've found your cave inside your heart, and that is where you dwell

In that sacred space we closed the gap and took the leap
And woke up only when we first admitted that we were asleep
What a marvelous harvest we're honoured to reap
When the love we gave away, was the love we got to keep

On a pain-filled horizon we travel to see a better day
Following the cracks over fault-lines paving ways
Where we wander, wondering if we'll make it
Standing up to face the night when the lights have faded

Stay close on steep roads that we rose to meet
Kudos to all those that see through deceit
Stay close on steep roads and breathe, heaven, breathe
Walk tall and should you fall, then crawl on your knees
Stay close on steep roads and die with the brave
Let the pasts tests rest in their shallow graves
Stay close on steep roads, I think we're almost home
We've held our peace for centuries to sing a single song