​stay awake

[Verse 1]
Speed for breakfast and I spin
Weak and careless is all I've ever been
Drowning in a lake of sin
Mother tells me time and time again
Selfish intake for my brain
Trying to feel sane again

[Chorus]
Self indulgence and fake romance
I'm longing for some change
I'm being honest, I just want my thoughts to be blocked from the pouring rain
Self indulgence and fake romance
I'm longing for some change
I'm being honest, I just want my thoughts to be blocked from the pouring rain

[Verse 2]
Can't show emotions to the people who care
And dared to ask me why
Why I am always so high
I'm ready to die, I cross the River Styx, but no goodbye
I jump in and decompose, destroy my soul
But maybe one more line of coke to wake me up, destroy my gut
With drugs I take to stay awake
Words can't help and I'm to blame

[Chorus]
Self indulgence and fake romance
Longing for some change
I'm being honest, I just want my thoughts to be blocked from the pouring rain
Self indulgence and fake romance
I'm longing for some change
I'm being honest, I just want my thoughts to be blocked from the pouring rain

[Verse 3]
So much pain
All for worthless gain
Lying in a field of grass and hay
Crying softly as I lay
Vision's blurry as I stare
I don't want you all to care
I don't want you all to care
I don't want you all to care
I don't want you all to care

[Outro]
Just stay awake
To fall asleep
Inside my dreams
Never rest my head on my pillows and faint
Never rest my head on pillows and faint
I don't want you to go
I don't want this to end