Status Update

Even im tripping
Im still playing this game and i ain't in prison
Still out here living
Still out here earning my starship deployment blue ribbon
Luck with the women
(maybe a bit out of sorts)
But i ain't dead daughter stay fed
Ain't in the red ain't in the courts

This year been crazy broke up with baby
Family get murdered or suicide daily
Had to quit drinking because i kept thinking
About all this shit everytime i got hazy
(banned from a venue)
Took advice from my friends and i tried to pretend you
Didn't exist and put you on a list
But that didn't much help and i still will defend you

Music my therapy can't even write it
And when i sit down to i can't even lie its
Like i forgot how to string it together
Fit all of my feelings in make myself better
Heard this beat on a stream might as well pirate
And try it out give it a go
Im the king of the scene the shel silverstein
Im hacking and phreaking the flow

Bad with my money feel like a dummy
Feel like a failure and people dont love me
Know that ain't true at the core of my being
But consciousness kills and my hearts in agreement
(maybe a mid life)
Crisis i guess that its getting that time
I look at my watch and i gather my thoughts
While the memories flood in i ask for a sign

Still immature
Still out in LA the hacker couture
Still popping boxes and feeding the poor
Picking myself up and off of the floor
Timing is everything right now im hemorrhaging
(maybe we needed a break)
Take some time to reflect let me clean up my mess
Because baby i needed that space

That goes for all of us demons that follow us
Gotta forgive yourself or they will swallow us
(whole)
Haven't been diligent dim little filament
Haven't been playing my role
Mentally ill -
Mentally question my skill
If im not popping them pills
You know the drill
Pushing through life with your sheer force of will

Planets in trouble
Most of the globes in a media bubble
Feel kinda powerless
Bathing in cowardice
Sitting here silent with no one to cuddle
And this forms a pattern
Circle around like the rings of saturn
Trying to find some peace of mind
In this of slice of time like something matters

Hope i find what im seeking over a long weekend
Sooner than later so i can start speaking
And doing the things that im destined to do
And not sitting here lonely and wrestling with you
As for the rest of my crew
Continue success i invested in you
Spam God continue to Bless Every Move
So lets get in the booth and stop stressing it boo

(boo)