Star Gazing

[Verse 1: Bingx]
I feel like I'm poppin' bottles and stargazin'
Findin' someone to get my heart racin'
Anything I can do just to feel alive
Feelin' alive is where my hearts cravin'
Get the weed, take a pill, while I drink to the stars that they can heal yeah yeah
Cause I just wanna feel some right now even if it ain't real yeah yeah
Eat some no mind better give me up, better my head right now
Got shawty on deck in the bed right now
If she down for whatever come next right now, okay
Ride the wave, lend somethin' for the pain
I'm in outta space
It's the only time I'm feelin' home
I been to, been to hell and back
Looking for a piece of mind to call my own

[Chorus: Bingx]
Fucked up, let's ride
Dubs up, west side
Anytime, any place
Tell 'em I'm down to ride
Cheat up, dance ride
Need no, body else
Bedroom, kill the vibe
I'mma give a lot myself
I'm far from the usual
I'm in the dark looking for something unusual
Something that's beautiful
Something I [?]
Cause some of 'em do it so
I'm far from the usual

[Verse 2: Bingx]
Heat to myself till I'm faded then I need some lovin' to
And I be cool till I'm sober then I wanna someone new, yeah
I take my women with Adderall maybe a cup or two
They don't know what I'm going thru, just what I'm coming thru
I done been runnin' thru, running too low, step on my toes
Tryna keep going but I think I'm in love with the [?]
I'm up on the low, staying 100, feel more like a 100 below
I struggle to cope, but think I'm lovin' it though
Pain is the feeling I covet the most
That's how I heal when I'm strugglin' the most
So give me the bottle and let me go
If you got a problem don't let me know
It's the only time I'm feelin' home
I been to, been to hell and back
Looking for a piece of mind to call my own

[Chorus: Bingx]
Fucked up, let's ride
Dubs up, west side
Anytime, any place
Tell 'em I'm down to ride
Cheat up, dance ride
Need no, body else
Bedroom, kill the vibe
I'mma give a lot myself
I'm far from the usual
I'm in the dark looking for something unusual
Something that's beautiful
Something I [?]
Cause some of 'em do it so
I'm far from the usual

[Verse 3: Futuristic]
I been swimmin' in liquor and women
Kept 'em addicted to livin' this life that I give 'em
The mentions became an addiction
I'm dippin', they trippin', I seen their intentions
Damn pure, what I thought they was
I was looking at the stars, can they talk to us?
In my shoes, ain't too many that can walk with us
Still reflecting on the days that I caught the bus
Thinkin' maybe that's better than this
Make a drink it's like medicine
Hits in his mask and the things I can never forget
Speaking in past since the veterans spits
It's been a minute since positions had me thinkin' a ended it all
Living room wall
I placed my head contemplatin' the fall
Laid my phone down, hopin' someone making a call
Cause everything that I was sayin', they was takin' it wrong
But then I, bounce up [?]
Everything that I'm gettin', I know that it was meant for me
Looking at my parents that I'm not repeating history
I broke the modern now and help when everybody listening
My purpose prolly wrote in the stars
Like my homies in the system, I stand by the bars
And if my words saving lifes, I'm doing it right
I had to look into my life, that I tore it apart

[Outro: Bingx]
I been to hell and back
Looking for a place to call my own