Stairs(Trial)

[Verse]
Look at me
It's what you have created
And sadly I'm the thing that you're ashamed of
And painful and traumatizing, why add more pain?
And I throw myself down those stairs
If it makes you feel okay
And I've tried everything
I've tried everything to better myself
I'm a completely new person
But still too much in my head
'Cause right up there, things seem better
You know I'd be there instead
But at night when I'm in my bed
Those thoughts - man I get so scared