STAINS

[Chorus]
I just hope I change it 'round now
I been goin’ through the same things
I just hope I leave the house now
I'll probably stay in and just make things
I been workin' through the same drought
Prayin’ for rain
My shit grayed out, I'm adding the stains
Probably make it out some other way
Get the paint out, I'm gonna change

[Verse]
Rebel since I was a kid, my mother went into work
She said, "Theres a test," she had written it big
I skipped it just like I did church
It's like every damn time I feel responsibility, I feel my heart beating out of my throat hole
Feel like I just swallowed my throat whole
So I just been wandering, no goal
And I tried the public, I fumbled and fucked it up
I couldn't focus, it swallowed my soul, though
Now I just feel aimless and cold, I put all of my efforts to tuning my vocals
And as a kid, I was lazy
Skipped a shower, that turned into months
I'd devour my food in a minute
I turned all of my sorrow to lunch
Pushed my insecurities outward
Picked up rap as a way to be tough
I fake I'm a saint, I'm a coward
I wonder when I’ll have enough
And I don’t like my own reflection, I'm betting the day that I crack it is soon
Been inside, I ghosted my complexion, I’m better brain-dead with my breath in a tube
I just been waiting for lightning to strike me and lift me up off this seat
But I panic, I know that my canvas is blank, but it's better to stain it than leave it in peace
I been so scared of the same things, never occurred just to change
Better-worse now I'm turning the page
Break a curse and converting my stains

[Chorus]
I just hope I change it 'round now
I been goin’ through the same things
I just hope I leave the house now
I'll probably stay in and just make things
I been workin' through the same drought
Prayin' for rain
My shit grayed out, I'm adding the stains
Probably make it out some other way
Get the paint out, I'm gonna change