St. John the Divine

And when the world will stay the same
But your place in relation to it has changed
And when the word begins to lose
Its power to restore and soothe

And when the blackness starts its spread
From behind your tired head
What taxes now was once your wealth
What sucks and aches becomes your health

And when the night spreads into day
In one unbroken spread of gray
And when the darkness fills the space
Between the bone and skin of your face

And seeps between your skull and brain
As input filters through its stain
The tightness in your brow contains
What poisoned yesterday but now sustains

And when the night begins its flow
And you watch yourself give up control
When what was cold now keeps you warm
And you watch your outer self transform

And the one you love
Keeps the faith that you can rise above
But if you've kept faith with yourself
You might admit that you could use some help

Remove yourself and study close
When next the dark begins its flow
If clinical the problem be
Remove yourself and you will see

When next the blackness flow begins
I eat your pills, you eat my sins
And take me back to prouder days
But please don't take my anger away

And I don't pray
But I humble myself
I am on my knees today
I don't pray