Spid

She talks about me while I'm gone
Your wife said that I am banned from the house forevermore
Have you both gone too far?
You send them like messengers out of fear
Like I'm miles away to talk like a man, yeah you're far
Emotionally too far

And it seems like time went fast enough
For you to just give up
I refuse to face the simple fact that you just want me dead
But what I can do now?

You're not around
I'm not your son
I never was

Like I was a stranger all of this time
Since I thought you could be someone I'd trust, oh, I was wrong
Is it just bizarre?
I let you be my hell for day and night
You actively were trying to hard for me to pay you back
Like it was all my fault

And it seems like time went fast enough
For you to just give up
You speed through my life like I'm just a memory from the past
But what I can do now?

I'm alone at the street every midnight
Running from the fear and the deep dark
I disdain, oh, this damn fucking life
But it is what my luck has brought
And I still haven't known 'bout my siblings
Not a word from my brothers and sister
I feel like I no longer am beloved
I barely get ahold of myself
I'm living these days overwhelmed
Oh, I had in front of me the reason
Like my mother has told me every season
Maybe she was right about you, dad
Maybe she was right