This song, according to Mark Chavez, is about his ex-girlfriend who had an abortion for their child but told everyone else she knew and told Mark last.
This song expresses how he would’ve felt if she would’ve never done that
[Intro]
There's so many people dying
You complain about your situation
What about me?
Half the world wouldn't know
What it's like to lose your seed
Maybe you can understand
[Chorus]
(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
[Verse]
The guilt has lasted years, still cry
It was all planned out
Why was I last to know?
Don't you trust in me?
The table's cold, it's too late
To make up for these mistakes
Maybe you can't understand
[Chorus]
(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How I feel)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday
[Outro]
(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How I feel)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday
Speculum was written by Kris Kohls & Tim Fluckey & Mike Ransom (Guitarist) & Dave DeRoo & Mark Chavez.
Speculum was produced by Tobias Miller & Bill Appleberry.