Special Days

[Verse 1]
It's a special day today
I'm setting time aside to pray
That maybe things might change a bit this year
But I'm a fool for having dreams
Or at least that's what it seems
Since I'm on the outside looking in at you

I wonder why I never got that lovin' for myself
Is it because I made you mad or brought you down?
I don't know why I've never had that lovin' for myself
I'm just a mess sometimes, I'm sorry if I've ever let you down

[Pre-Chorus]
Oh, I can see
Why I may feel so lonely
I'm trying to make do without you

[Chorus]
Spending special days alone
Wishing you were here
We're all just spending special days alone
And I am praying for the day
When I can look to you and say
"My love, I am so glad to be with you"

[Verse 2]
It's another special day
And yet again alone I stay
It seems my luck is always running out
But maybe I deserve this mess
God knows I am not the best
Yeah, I'm slowly losing my own peace of mind

I wonder why I never got that lovin' for myself
Is it because I'm always insecure and sad?
I don't know why I've never had that lovin' for myself
I'm just a lonely little mess and maybe I just bring you down

[Pre-Chorus]
It can't be true
That I'm not good enough for you
I think I'm way too hard on myself

[Chorus]
Spending special days alone
Wishing you were here
We're all just spending special days alone
And I am praying for the day
When I can confidently say
I'm deeply, endlessly in love with you

And I have fallen to my knees
To beg myself, to air my pleas
I won't let loneliness destroy me!

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm a mess
My seams are bursting, I confess
But maybe I could spend the day with you?

[Chorus]
Spending special days alone
Wishing you were here
We're all just spending special days alone
But now it all seems clear
I'll never spend another day alone!
And I am praying for the day
That I don't have to hide away
And I can live my life next to you
And I am praying for the day
When I can look to you and say
"My love, I am so glad to be with you"