Speak of the Devil

[Verse: Hugh Rackman]
Even though life changing, I never changed up
A 'lil fame, 'lil change never changed us
Everybody back home say I changed up
Why you worry bout me? Get ya change up
I couldn't tell you how many nights I would stay up
Man, I can't dream. All I had was dreams
And all I had was nightmares when I fuckin' sleep
Thinkin' bout suicide every couple weeks
Thinkin' bout my dad, askin' why he fuckin' leave
Man, I wish we spoke more
I told my homegirl, appreciate him while he still alive and could feel shit
A couple years, then he died, then that's real shit
I resented my pops, 'cause he would leave us he used to beat on my momma
But god dammit I need him
And I'm trying to hide these scars, but god dammit I'm bleedin
No raf simmons can cover it, still cop for the fuck of it, yeah
I don't even know what its worth no more
I don't even smoke purp no more
Fuck love, I don't even want to put her in a verse no more
'Cause she hit me when she need me, when I need her
Where she at though?
I speak my mind, they tell me that I'm an asshole
Have an opinion, they tell you that you ungrateful
And I ain't tryna be hateful, but I bit my tongue so much
How the fuck can I still be tasteful?
Motherfuckers still dyin' on the block
Still duckin' from the sirens on the block
And I'm somewhere at a hotel, alone, trying not to go crazy
Stressed out from all this climbing to the top like fuck it man
What's the fuckin' point?
What's this rap shit worth in the end dawg?
I lost my mind, grow and sell for my friends dawg
Make me wonder what the fuck I touch a pen for
But don't send for me dawg, I really do this shit
Shit, if you got a death wish then feel free
And they say it's just business, guess we'll see
'Cause anyone can get the business man, word to me
I don't just murder beats
Motherfuckers sell dimes where they servin' keys
Whole crew fucked up 'cause your homie talked shit about the other one as soon as the person leave
Y'all was just burning weed
Guess the snakes really in the grass, G, they tryna sneak on the kid
Talkin' down any chance, you know they reachin' this shit
'Cause they see me doin' better man, than he ever did
And those Xanax you takin' make you sleep on the kid
No line either homie, here's a tab you missin'
A pill head couldn't even handle that prescription
A real head, man, could even see the facts you missin'
All you gotta be is you, but that's a fad you missin'
Speakin' on the kid, that's a bad decision, yeah
Almost as bad as them raps you kickin', yeah
Almost as bad as that past you livin', yeah
Almost as bad as your last addiction, yeah
Nowadays, everybody high, nobody low
They got me hot, actin' like this ain't the coldest you get
But I know they know, you gotta see the flow as a threat
But I'm out of my mind, I'm used to goin' over they heads, yeah
I talk to God, he don't say nothin' back
I just need a sign. I either see him or I'm buggin
And it's probably the latter, but I always been a climber
So shit, even if I'm down, watch me climb back up in this shit
I'll probably go 7:30, before I ever let 'em tell me that my time's up
Before I ever let 'em tell me that my prime's up
And I ain't even reach it yet motherfucker
I'm the best motherfucker
And I swear I ain't ever had a breath motherfucker
'Cause this shit is all I do
I don't even know who Lou is anymore
But one thing I tell that's true facts is
The truth's back bitch, Hugh Rackman
And I don't know if I'll actually move past this
Hopefully years later I'll just laugh and
Say that face real, to that day still
Love and hate, man you can't say it ain't real

[Chorus: The Boy Who Fell to Earth]
They just wanna see me fall
They don't know why I've been fallin, for some time now
They don't know why I've been fallin, for some time now, yeah
They don't know why I've been fallin
They just wanna see me fall
Think they wanna see me fall, yeah
I've been fallin', for some time now, it ain't nothing new, yeah
It ain't nothing new, yeah
And I'm still stuck on you, yeah
And I don't know what to do, yeah
'Cause I don't even fuck with you, yeah
And I've been fallin', girl
And you ain't never hold me down
The weed really hold me down
And you don't even know me now
And I've been fallin', yeah
And they just wanna see me fall
Now you wanna see me, what you need me for?
'Cause I was just somebody that you need me for, yeah
I've been, fallin', for some, time now
I think, I need, you to, calm down
Started to, show love, changed my, mind now
Don't know where my mind at, don't wanna find out
Don't wanna find out, yeah
Think they wanna see me fall, yeah
They just wanna see me fall, yeah
They don't know why I've been fallin, for some time now
And they don't know I've been fallin', yeah
Fallin' for some time now
And they don't know why I've been fallin, for some time now, yeah
I think they wanna see me fall, yeah
I think they wanna see me fall, yeah
I think they wanna see me fall, yeah (I think they wanna see me fall, yeah)
I think they wanna see me fall, yeah