Spark

I really hope these strings will communicate my heart/
And if they don't I just pray that they'll be a start/
What I can't say I place in art, make plain the vague and hope it makes a spark/
Of a little bit of light in all this dark/
I have friends who’s dear to me, don't understand the pain I see/

I'm building something great but sometimes I feel the vacancy/
Don't know where to turn, feeling lost inside this greatness seems/
Oxymoronic, I'm doing fine as far as they can see/
Social media got us confused, it's a place to post the news/
Not a place to post how you are really doing/
So we don't, because we don't want to hear it/
Emoji hands I'm praying for you, thou shalt not lie, we really know we won't/
So if I say that, I really drop my head and whisper something to the Father/
Wish I would pray for me when I get bothered/
When Kinah was a toddler, 0-100 I would yell when I got stress outside that harmed us, and I'm sorry/
And I can't go to sleep or wake without things on my brain like/
Close people that’s in pain I know, folk I know that ain't right/
They left down a dangerous road, don't if it's they night/
For us to get a call saying he ain't make it to daylight/
I grew up with stories of inequality and fake rights/
To pacify a movement people ain't want to see take flight/
A hope of overcoming then Tamir got shot and nothing happened/
I looked at Josiah like we really in the same fight/
I have white friends I love dearly, my arm, I'd give the right for/
Who complain about these issues like an eye sore/
It will go away if we don't look, nothing cancer victims say/
But the truth they cannot see behind their eye boards/
They won't take the plank up out, while they’re rolling in the saw dust/
American dreaming to build a house on false constructs/
Can't notice the footing lost from dust that turns to quick sand/
And wanna fix this land from a distance/
Want an instance where it all goes away without repentance/
But go to church and praise Him with WWJD on their wristbands/
While we were yet sinners, hit the cross for the undeserving/
But we get convenient when it comes down to other serving/
Cool to hear bout’ pain if it don't disrupt our undergirdings/
Don't take a knee, do it this way, no concern the brother's hurting/
Find a way to discredit, find a way to dismiss em’/
Maybe he shouldn't care cause he's mixed or just switched religions?/
Maybe I wasn't there why should I pay for the sins I didn't?/
Whether it's fake news or stay woke we stay blaming the systems/
See we stay blaming “isms,” point fingers from our corners and falling back/
Not realizing all these “isms” we struggle with are all results of that/
But I'm off of that, meanwhile what's really bugging/
Still feel I struggle some days as a son and a husband/
Feel like I fight to make change and don't know if it's buzzing/
Then have nothing left for my family I just know that I love em’/
Owe them the best but feel I give them seconds over others/
Not my intention but this feeling's real over redundant/
Lay my kids down feel like I failed again, it’s so repugnant/
I'm just fighting hard to try and be who my daddy wasn't/
I have a high standards because I want the best for them/
But without God on my best day all I can give them in my best is sin/
My wife holds on to me through the best of them/
She's seen me at my worst and still whispered to me to rest in Him/
I don't understand it all, and I never claimed to/
But when I couldn't He sent me a brown skinned angel/
A messenger of grace, I know the difference between Satan and his claims too/
I don't always know where I’m going all the time, but I know how grace moves/
So new day I’ma face you, with all my pain and stains too/
All the things that's weighing on my heart I can't explain to/
I will make it over things others can't relate to/
Hands high, face low still remains my angle/
I just pray this transparent moment really helps you make it through/
No matter what's in your way I just hope you make it too/
Whether inside or outside whatever’s paining you/
I pray this transparent moment really helps you pray too/

I really hope these strings will communicate my heart/
And if they don't I just pray it’ll be a start/
What I can't say I place in art, to make plain the vague, hope it makes a spark/
Of a little bit of light in all this dark/
I really hope these strings will communicate my heart/
And if they don't I just pray it’ll be a start/
What I can't say I place in art, to make plain the vague, hope it makes a spark/
Of a little bit of light in all this dark/