Spank

[Chorus]
I don't remember the first time
But I think I survived
Probably better not to try to recall 'cause it feeds it, yeah it keeps it alive

[Verse 1]
There are specific things
That I have to do
Day to day just to keep it at bay
You wouldn't believe if you knew

([TOM:]
Oh no, this isn't real)
Oh no, this isn't real

[Chorus]
Here's a little secret
Here's the best part
This is going to take me
Right back to the start
If I can't hear it
If it's out of mind
Wait until it settles
Comes round a second time

I don't remember the first time
But I think I survived
Probably better not to try to recall 'cause it feeds it, yeah it keeps it alive

[TOM:]
(Oh no...)
[ALISA:]
(Yeah)
[TOM:]
(This isn't real...)

[Chorus]
Here's a little secret
Here's the best part
This is going to take me
Right back to the start
If I can't hear it
If it's out of mind
Wait until it settles
Comes round a second time

[Verse 2]
I can feel it loom
Up into my head
It is in the room
Panicking in bed
I feel it coming on
Taking over view
Oh please not tonight
There’s nothing I can do

[Verse 3]
This is bigger than me
This is in my fear
This is pitiful
I just disappear
Swells up all around me
Swallowed up inside
Sell my senses if
It would make this subside

[Verse 4]
I can barely handle
I can pass the time
Staring through the curtains
Up into the sky
Where there is no
Depth perception
Keep preoccupied:
Self deception
Nobody recognizes
It doesn’t have a name
My brother is infected; he’s acting just the same
Screaming like a siren, up and down the hall
He just wants to stop it
He wants to end it all

[Verse 5]
I am just a child
I have nothing more
Than the basic function I am running from
I curl up and wallow
My distortion
Everything is disproportion

[Verse 6]
Suddenly I wake
All is back again
Everything is closer
Morning is the same
And I can’t hear it
It’s way out of mind
I will just forget this till the next time