Souls

Im often lost inside my head
So I find myself through beats
Talk about this path we lead and every sign that has deceived
As I journeyed down this road I noticed wolf's in sheep's clothing
I swear it be your own people scheming on you, loathing
Smoking on this doinkie, got me voicing out my inner truth
Coping by my lonely, through this music's how I vent to you
Tell me am I getting through? Or is this shit too dark and sad?
Walk a lap inside my shoes, I guarantee you'll crash
Pass, the fucking dope so I can smell the flower
Inside my mind, I lose control, feels like I have no power
Past encounters left me sour, so I'm bitter now
The saddest hours tower over me and kick me down
Im trying, I'm so tired of being tired and sick
Im fine, that's what I'll tell you when I feel like shit
Im dying, I got a firm grip around this blick
One click, and no fucking more will I exist

I really don't know why, I do this to myself
I listen to these lies, I always tell myself
No I don't think I'll ever be okay
No I don't think I'll ever be fine
My heart is always feeling so much pain
How will I ever heal this broken heart of mine?

Broken heart's and wounded soul's
Stolen parts from my spirit, got me feeling low
No, I need a crutch to help me stand in life
I can't feel much so these drugs stay right by my side
Fuck, open your eyes, you think I like this shit?!
Im traumatized, and these wounds are more than I can fix
No, the silence never felt this loud before!
I hear the sirens in my head, my body on my floor!
Fuck! How much more can I fucking take?!
Before I break my life and decimate my fate!
Can't replicate your happiness I know
Its sad to say, but I think my departure is set in stone!
I don't condone this shit, I'm speaking out
But I feel so alone, my cold soul is bleeding out
Will you hear me out before I'm gone?
Do you see clearly now the pain I've hidden for so long?

I really don't know why, I do this to myself
I listen to these lies, I always tell myself
No I don't think I'll ever be okay
No I don't think I'll ever be fine
My heart is always feeling so much pain
How will I ever heal this broken heart of mine?