soulcrushing

Feel like i been losin patience, allat shit so wasted
Tryna not fall to complacence, this world might be sadist
Ain't nun savin me, my blood gon stain that dirt nd paint it
All typsa red, lesions gonna make this canvas leak
Off the top my head, yu gon watch all o that scarlet creep
Down into that scarlet creek
Bloodsport all i wreak
Death is all i speak

Legions in my fuckin brain, i could never sleep
I got leeches in my way, i know they tryna feed
They tryna rip out all the iron in my art (they take frm me)
Im so tired of it, im leakin out my heart (blood, sweat nd tears)
This shit burstin thru my ears, turn up the noise til i can't hear
Am i even here? am i even real?? (disassociate, associate)
Disassociate til im at the gates
Yea i look at myself like "what a waste"
I jus wanna unsee my face