the 1st song i wrote after my father passed away originally it was acoustic but in march of 2020 during quarantine i made it into the song it is now
[Intro]
(Hello)
(I like this new generation of music)
(meat, meat, meat computer)
[Verse]
Got a lil' brother and one day our father died
And at the time I didn't really know how to feel inside
Nowadays I find I'm getting fucked up all the time
Thinking about that shit
But if that's why I do these drugs then that's a lie
Now my memories so fucked up
Don't remember shit about him
And I was right there, when he fucking kicked the shit
Like what kinda shit is this?
Feel like I'm losing it, on some Alzheimer's shit
Yeah, don't wanna die a kid, but like suck it up
Then life it hits you up like an uppercut
Watching friends go from pills, yeah, just to shooting up
And eating stale cereal three times a day
Yeah, I may have an ulcer in my stomach
And might be gay
Well, I don't wanna fuck a guy
Just wanna seem astray from everyone around me
In this fucking dirty inbred place
Nowadays seem like most of these fucking people in a daze
Shit's lame
Never wanted to fit in anyway (Meat, Meat, Meat Computer)
So I'm waking up
Lungs feel like an old ashtray
Smoking fifty blunts just to keep myself somewhat sane
Taking tequila shots at breakfast just so I don't feel the same
We ain't the same
Gotta take something just to slow my brain
Last thing I ever told my dad was that I'll see him soon
Later on I went home
He fucking went and died that afternoon
Then that night everything seemed just to come undo
Never been the same since
But never knew just what to do
But fuck that shit (Hello)
Yeah, I'll admit, that I don't give a fuck or shit
Yeah, I'll be quick
And say some days I just wanna quit
Just give it up
Fuck this music shit, no one listen to my stuff
Or gives a fuck about it
So I'll just keep feeling stuck
I don't know what I'm feeling
Guess I'm feeling stuck
Don't know what to feel
Guess I'm not feeling much
Don't know what to think
She just says I think too much
Yeah, I know
Wish I didn't fucking think
[Outro]
Wish and I don't know just where I'm going
Just know that I'm going away for good
And I don't know what or where I'm going
Just hope that I'm going away for good
Yeah
soul doubt was written by meat computer.
soul doubt was produced by meat computer.
meat computer released soul doubt on Thu May 21 2020.