Song About Why I Suck

[Verse 1]
Before, if I fucked up anything, I only hurt me
I never hurt anyone, but now there are real people
My actions affect, and I cannot stand it
I cannot handle it
I smoke too much weed and watch too much TV
I always run out of cigarettes, I lie about everything
This used to be me, but now it's feeling stale and friendly

[Chorus]
And I hate what I've become
But I've never been so proud of what I've achieved

[Verse 2]
And I steal from my friends, this is how I will tell them
But sometimes I'm broke, and when I am, I'll do anything
But it's no excuse, 'cause none of us have a thing
But you were all honest, I self-aggrandise my own bullshit
Borrow money for food and I spend it on booze
And eat bread from the dumpster and use anything
I can use to block out my thoughts, quiet my brain
I still jump when the pain comes

[Chorus]
And I hate what I've become
But I've never been so proud of what I've achieved

[Verse 3]
And I just want my parents to think that I'm clever
And excuse my lifestyle, but my lifestyle has become an excuse
Formed out of habit
And I just want my friends to know that I'll never
Fuck them around again, 'cause people are everything
And I sing these songs to sync up with the stragglers
And I sing these songs because nothing else matters
And I sing these songs out of fury and fear
And I sing these songs, 'cause without them
I wouldn't be here
With you