Somewhere In Between

[Verse 1]
I've got pain and trauma, the new edition
The kind that nobody knew existed
The kind that could've been stopped if they would've listened
I've got to make enough cash for two musicians
Just so my team can feed their families
The same ones who told them they're too ambitious
This right here is the new depression, the 2022 version
Fallin' in love with someone and findin' out you're one of two persons
Maybe I knеw that before but dammit, daai deng ing'shayе nga sick-a
You say "Thabo, I'll never hurt you"
Then you go and hurt me next week
Now I got a new defence mechanism
I love you but you say I'd never listen
Even when you in the bed, huggin' kissin'
Even when you're in your head reminiscin'
Nami bengithi ngizothola somethin'
Ngena too deep, it was all or nothin'
You don't know how broken, someone is until you try to love them

[Chorus]
Got so many pains, I don't want you to see
I don't want you to know, what's goin' on with me
I'm way too [?], you get really deep
Loving you and hating you, I'm somewhere in between
Got so many pains, I don't want you to see
I don't want you to know, what's goin' on with me
I'm way too [?], you get really deep
Lovin' you and hatin' you, I'm somewhere in between

[Post-Chorus]
Somewhere in between
Somewhere in between
Somewhere in between
Loving you and hating you, I'm somewhere in between

[Verse 2]
After this, there better be, a better me
Put up an act so they can accept me, uThabo ngim'shiy' endlini
[?] timer, umntwana wasekhaya uyacava babheke mina
After I've taken care of everybody then I'll take care of me
She wants to take things slowly
I'm gone after 24 hours, I must be an Insta story
Was never on her wishlist but her interest is growin'
It must be her friends telling her that this kid is blowin'
But she needs to stay close to me in case I become somethin'
When I post myself in the whip or a plane they come runnin'
Like "Hey, stranger"
I guess I fill that void they have, I guess they fill that void I have
You think it's attention seekin', trust me it's way more than that
Absent fathers, absent mothers
Rape, assault, case gets covered
Young girl tries but can't recover
Has to fake her smile at supper
Siblings don't embrace each other
Couples only break each other
With all this hate that's going on, baby girl, can we just be lovers?

[Chorus]
Got so many pains, I don't want you to see
I don't want you to know, what's goin' on with me
I'm way too [?], you get really deep
Loving you and hating you, I'm somewhere in between
Got so many pains, I don't want you to see
I don't want you to know, what's goin' on with me
I'm way too [?], you get really deep
Lovin' you and hatin' you, I'm somewhere in between

[Post-Chorus]
Somewhere in between
Somewhere in between
Somewhere in between
Loving you and hating you, I'm somewhere in between