Sometimes

[Intro Chorus:]
And I need some time
I need to breathe sometimes
And I need it
And I need it
And I need it

[Verse 1:]
Lately I’ve been thinking what the hell do I do this for
Why do I push at all, when it barely be moving forward
Put my ATAR on the line, just to show you I’m musical
And maybe I’m stupid for it

I turned in my first mixtape, then I worked on the follow up
Just so I could follow up, when my first one was blowing up
But in honesty I only made around like ten dollars bruh
That’s good for my confidence (nah)

I sent my CD’s out for free, I put the whole thing out for free
I think I’ll do the same again, except this ones more quality
Atleast I hope so, the next one I’ll be calling mum and dad up on their homephone
Coz I’ll have moved and I’ll be sending photos

You want problems I got em
You want struggling rapper mixed with big dreams then you got it
You want the story made of road to riches my brother this isn’t the hobbit
You wanna hear some shitty humour then go switch on ‘The Office’

I had one my best friends move away, and she ignores all my messages
I don’t really know why, I guess we’ll never be friends again
I don’t know about adulthood, coz I think it’s all stress and shit
I just wanna fly away, I hope I see you in Neverland

But, now I’m 18, and I’m legally mature
But I don’t mean to be adult, the ID’s the thing that’s good about it
All the rest I try’n manouvre round it
Because I am not into accounting

Or the rest of the shit that goes along with it, like taxes and mortgages
And marriage with four kids, a sore back in the morning it’s
Not far away, I’m sure that I’ll see harder days
This life is too fast to waste, and everyone’s leaving music

Feel like I’m a lone survivor, castaway
I’m learning as I go and patching issues with masking tape
I’ll never see the inside of Harvard’s gates
And I’m okay with it, who I am is not hard to face

[Chorus:]
And I need some time
I need to breathe sometimes
And I need it
And I need it
And I need it

[Verse 2:]
I got friends that got issues with love
And I got people I care about carrying issues with drugs
And I’ve seen lives ruined, am I selfish to focus on my music
Am I rude to keep putting my mind to it

Was told I’d do anything if I put my mind to it
I think I could go be Cinderella if the shoe fits
So this is my shot, like J. F Kennedy, hope God is taking care of me
Cause when I’m in the deep it’s hard to say like an anemone

For every friend I’m sure that I got an enemy
Like a rich clownfish, but play it smart like it’s jeopardy
It seems like all my idols get in posts reading rest in peace
That’s Peezo, Mac Miller, that’s Nipsey, X and Peep

I said some things on tracks that I wouldn’t say after
Guess I’m tryna take off like a rocket, James Harden
I don’t wanna grow up just stay ‘Lil,’ Dwayne Carter
I’m tryna lay foundations for the future, straight karma

I got played on Triple J a couple of times
Because they fuck with my rhymes
When I got bumped it was like, I came out the dark into light
Took my songs right out of the gutter and I, just saw them up in the sky

I’ve got a few headbangers, no Bill Clinton
My friends wanna catch up, coz they feel distant
Saying that I’ve changed, nah dog I’m still Tristan
I know that I’ve grown but I don’t really feel different

They tell me to grow up, yeah I gotta be a man
But I don’t think my checkered socks and beat up Vans
Are ever gonna age like they’re Peter Pan
And I don’t wanna think I wanna see the end

Eventually, we’re all there inevitably
So we gotta make the most out of everything
That’s why I rap like my life ain’t infinite
Because I know that my time is limited

[Chorus:]
And I need some time
I need to breathe sometimes
And I need it
And I need it
And I need it

[Bridge:]
And my Poppy died, I was wondering casually
If he was still alive, would he even be proud of me?
I don’t know
I don’t

Wonder what he’d think of my lyrics
I wonder what he’d think when he hears em’
I don’t know